Conference presentations ...

I've been preparing a presentation for a Conference I'm going to on Tuesday; Mental Health and Young People; Promoting a Positive and Healthy Body Image."  It's been organised by the Public Policy Exchange
 (click here for more info Public Policy Exchange) as a follow up from an All Party Parliamentary Group on Body Image last year.

Central YMCA played a big role in this APPG Body Image group, and a colleague and myself became involved via the YMCA.  We developed and facilitated some workshops for Key Stages 1 & 2 pupils in primary schools.  We fed back our experiences to YMCA and they were included in the published report:  'Reflections on body image'.  More details can be found by visiting  www.ymca.co.uk/bodyimage/

This conference is a bit of a first for me.  I've presented at a number of conferences over the last 3 or 4 years as part of my PhD, but each of those has been one which I've had to apply to present at.  This is the first one for which I was approached by the organisers and invited to attend.  I'm sure it comes from the work I did last year as part of the APPG Body Image inquiry; but it's a privilege to be invited to present.

It feels like a recognition of my developing expertise and all of the research I've engaged in over the last few years.  And that feels good; especially as I head towards the end of my PhD.

It also got me thinking about just how many conferences and events I've presented at.  I used to be absolutely terrified of public speaking, and yet now, I gladly put myself forward for it.  I still feel some nerves, but I'm sure that's normal.  My research and what I'm learning from it, excites me so much, that I want to share it with others ... at conferences, and hopefully, eventually, in print.


This is the list of conferences I've attended & titles I've presented over the duration of my PhD to date ...

2010   BACP Research Conference, London
Poster Presentation: “The impact of working with eating disordered clients on the counsellor’s sense of self: a pilot study”

2010   VITAE Public Engagement Event, Newcastle Poster Presentation:  “Working with eating disordered clients: Might it eat away at the counsellor?”

2010   York St John University; Research Methodologies Conference
Paper:  “The evolution of a methodology: An exploration of counsellors’ embodied subjectivities when working with clients presenting with eating disorder symptomatology”

2010  Newcastle Counselling Association
Workshop Presentation:  “Dispelling fears: The importance of research in counselling”

2011   BACP Research Conference, Liverpool
Poster Presentation:  “Changing the researcher, changing the research:  The impact of  exploring the embodied subjectivities of counsellors working with clients with eating disorders”

2011   VITAE Public Engagement Event, Durham
Petcha Kucha Presentation:  “The effects on counsellors of working with clients who have eating disorders”

2011   York St John University; Research Methodologies Conference
Paper:  “Giving the researcher a voice: Autoethnography as a vehicle for reflexivity”

2011   NCCCTC Conference, Newcastle
Paper Presentation:  “Embodying change work and eating disorders”

2012   BACP Research Conference, Edinburgh
Paper:  “The embodied counsellor: Exploring the counsellor’s embodied subjectivity when working with clients presenting with eating distress”

2012   VITAE Public Engagement Event, York
Poster Presentation:  “How amazing is your body?!  From the counselling room to you … “

2012   Newcastle Counselling Association
Workshop Presentation: “The embodied counsellor: Reflections on the therapist’s body and relationship with food”

2013   York St John University Faculty of Life & Health Sciences; Faculty Research Seminar
Presentation:  “An exploration of the counsellor’s embodied subjectivity when working with clients presenting with eating disorder symptomatology: Methodological progression and key findings to date”

2013  Mental Health and Young People; Promoting a Positive and Healthy Body Image; A Public Policy Exchange Symposium, London
Paper Presentation: “Embodying change: An embodied approach to working with body image”

The body as object or experiential container of self?

In modern western society, we live in a culture where a great deal of emphasis is placed on how we look as opposed to what our bodies actually enable us to do and experience. This creates a sense of our bodies as objects and creates a sense of disconnection between our bodies and our experiencing of our-Selves.

In the past, our bodies were experienced and appreciated more as means of production, ensuring we remained connected to, and within them. Before the advent of modern technology we used our bodies more; housework was heavier than it is now, people were more actively involved in the growth and production of their own food. The machines we use today create a distance between those things and our bodies, and we no longer experience the satisfaction of using our bodies for hard labour. And it seems that the less, as a society, we have the need to use our bodies for production or constructive reasons, the more the emphasis has shifted onto how our bodies look.

Turning the body into an object to be sculpted, to be dieted or exercised into an ideal dictated to us by the media and peer pressure, disconnects us from our-Selves. Our bodies are part of our-Selves. Our bodies are how we present our-Selves to the world. Our bodies are from where we relate to other people. Our bodies are also what enable us to experience our thoughts, feelings and experiences through our five senses. And yet, by viewing them as objects which need to be changed to fit society’s ideals and expectations, it’s easy to lose sight of, or to lose touch with, the true value and meaning of our bodies; as experiential containers of our Selves.

In modern Britain, it’s almost an accepted norm that women especially, but increasingly men too, will be weight and body conscious, or on some kind of restricting diet in order to mould themselves into an ‘ideal’ shape constructed by the media and society. It seems that many people are more concerned with what society and our culture tell us about how we should look than with listening to their own Selves, to their own bodies. And this is where disordered eating can begin to creep in as people lose touch with their body’s own hunger signals in their attempts to mould their body to fit these ideals. Our bodies, if we learn how to listen clearly to them will tell us what we need to eat. Our bodies, if we listen to them and satisfy their physiological hunger will settle at a weight that’s right for them; very difficult to achieve though in a culture which prizes thinness, and often thinness to a point below the natural weight of many women.

Our modern Western world is still based on a patriarchal system where the masculine is prized over the feminine. The masculine principles of individuality, rational thought, autonomy and independence are prized above the feminine principles of intuition, feelings and emotion. A spiritual theory of eating disorders views eating disorders as a ‘Spiritual Hunger’, as a woman’s disconnection from her Self, her Inner Goddess and her inner feminine as a result of trying to fit into this Western world. People with eating disorders tend to have highly developed masculine principles to the detriment of their feminine and spiritual side which shows itself both in their character traits and their determination to eliminate their physical feminine body.

The accepted female shape, or what is considered ‘attractive’ has changed considerably over time. In past centuries, and even today in other cultures, female bodies are valued and worshipped for the amazing vessels which they are; bodies which nourish and create life. This statue, the ‘Venus of Willendorf’ from Palaeolithic times illustrates these changes.

The idea of woman as a goddess, prevalent in ancient times, has been lost in our society, and today instead, we’re fed images of often
painfully, or unrealistically, thin models to aspire to. A healthy

woman’s body is meant to contain a percentage of fat (between 21% and 36%, compared to 10% and 25% for men), it’s meant to be curvy to house her internal organs and prepare her for nurturing children. A female curvy body with rounded stomach, thighs and hips were once valued and worshipped. Yet today, women strive to eliminate all such curves; and by doing so disconnect themselves from their full experiencing of them-Selves and their experience of living as a woman in a woman’s body.

This blog post can also be found on Camel's Hump Blog ...http://camelshump.co.uk/2011/12/06/is-the-body-just-an-object/

Body Image … Embodiment … Embodied Subjectivity

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The quote below was posted on Facebook today (11.1.11) by Marc David, the founder and director of the Institute for the Psychology of Eating…
“A postulation on Body Image: the only way to truly heal a negative body image is to ‘embody’ - meaning to land in our body right now, as it is - move it, breathe it, celebrate it, explore with it, get curious about it. Thinking we will love our body at some future time when it reaches perfection is a dead end strategy. The question is - what does embodiment mean to you?”

The subject fits very neatly in with my current PhD research topic where I’m researching the impact on the counsellor’s embodied subjectivity of working with clients presenting with issues related to disordered eating. This client group tends to have a poor body image and a negative or very fragile connection to their own body and I’m wondering if the empathic connection counsellors make with their clients has any effect on the counsellor’s own sense of themselves within their body.

Our bodies are how we visually present ourselves to the world. Our bodies are the vessel in which, and from which, we experience ourselves and our world. As babies, we were at one, we were fully connected with, and to, our bodies … babies respond automatically to their body’s needs and signals. But as we grow older, we are taught, and we introject, messages from people around us that cause us to disconnect, to varying degrees, from our bodies and its instinctive yearnings and needs. This, in many people, leads to a sense of shame; of their bodies … but also of themselves … for our bodies are our Selves.

And it’s this intrinsic connection between our bodies and our sense of Self that I’m interested in researching further…